Wednesday, January 24, 2007

i love wednesdays

i was so edgy about the speech. but i relish in this feeling, this feeling of unfamiliar nervousness, as i stood before 30 of my classmates, my hand shaking in anxiety, i was taunted with questions. will i stutter? will i fall on my butt? will i make a fool of myself and never show my face again? oh, i really love the way my heart races. the fear, the panic, my head trying to remember the next word. boo said i should've gotten used to the attention, "parang ms.intrams lang yan" he said, but it's funny, i've done cheerdance and i danced in many school programs, and yet i still have this freaking stage fright. i love it anyway, so it doesn't matter.
oh well, i was shaking but i guess it wasn't that obvious that i was so jumpy because my prof complimented me. but ofcourse she also criticized me, she said i lack facial expression(the facial expression i practiced all night. asar!). but twas good. good enough for me.
anyway, after math class i went out with bop and gel. i bought myself a 'gogo' i know im on a diet but its like ceasar salad in a soft taco shell. it wouldn't be too bad, would it? grr. ceasar salad with a big chunk of chicken! went to westbrook afterwards, and distributed the scrapbook materials among us, haha! we left the wooden 'baca' for bossing ofcourse. what the hell is she gonna do with it?
eme brought me along to this environmental film showing. twas a documentary about one of the Philippine islands, called Fuga. it's prolly one of the few left uncivilized native islands of this country. it's paradise, except ofcourse that there's a lot of disease that cannot be cured because there are no hospitals. and that there is insufficient food because the people from the mainland has been getting all the fishes from their part of the sea. and now tim yun, or is it tan yun, is threatening them to leave the isand. calling them 'squatters' of the land where they have lived for hundreds of years. i was furious. this business tycoon has apparently 'bought' the island for 50million pesos on marcos' regime. how can someone buy an island owned by the country? he is transforming fuga island into a fantasy island. 12000 hotel rooms, 17 golf courses and the biggest gambling casino?? this is not worth wiping out our native brothers and sisters. to think that this guy who 'own' Fuga island is a filipino, a bicolano to be exact. grr. it is so infuriating. how can someone be so cruel to his fellow filipinos? we should be helping each other rather than trying to get ahead of everyone else. it's stupid, he's got everything he wants, he's a very rich man, why take away something worthless for him from those poor natives: their home.
okay enough with the ranting, even if i was so guilt stricken for eating 'gogo', i decided to treat myself with a strawberry shake. wee! and ofcourse, ceasar salad, which the waitress calls 'cesar' haha! ceasar salad, which is also my dinner last night. i haven't eaten rice in 3 days. oh, i hope this works. wish me luck.

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