ranting, PART 2

so it's Cecile van Straten's blog i'm currently hooked on. as ive said it's pretty addicting to know how the people from the other end of the pyramid lives. i'm listening to sean kingston's beautiful girls (thanks to gel's ipod) because i figured if you don't listen to the lyrics, the beats actually fun and it turns into a feel good song.

i kinda need to feel good right now.


watched One Tree Hill for 6 hours. and i bawled like a stupid baby at some very random scenes. i can't help it if i'm so into the jake-peyton love story and it's really killing me to see them part like that. seriously. i am so dumped by the fact that nicki's such a bitch and she just won't leave 'em alone. and peyton was really happy, its the first time that everything was so perfect for her. so i cried, and i cried some more. typical tisa. then i paused the damn thing and played it back to the part when jake was leaving, that part when he said "i could have held you in my armsforever, but that still wouldn't be long enough." it felt like stabbing my chest, then twisting the knife over and over again. it's torture. but sue me, i really find crying therapeutic. aside from ranting, crying is also what i do best. oh but anyway, im such a geek, i have no life which explains why i'm writing about someone elses. tas fictional characters pa, i have to get a life!! ahh, but anyway, it still pains me. hahaha. they were so wonderful, jake was so beautiful. i love jake. there! i said it, I LOVE JAKE!!

tish to gel: why am i such a loser?? haha.